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Dont know where to start.. How to express my feeling.. I'm really tired of this situation... No one to be blamed... Just an expression from the bottom of my heart...

Seriously, i take it as a HUGE lesson.. If only i could turn back time.. I will hardly make it not to happen.. Be it anything difficult, dont involve others in our case.. It will complicate the matter, not at the beginning maybe, but sumday when thing is uncontrolled... =_=

Being the oldest.. I'm the one that should save the situation and take the responsibility no matter at what stage or phase i'm sitting.. Showing the sadness to my all time best remedy (parents) will definitely make them worried of me.. So.. Being happy all the time is the best of me i can do... Be it anything, i will try as best as i can to make them happy... InsyAllah...

But, how strong am i...? I'm an ordinary woman... trying to be like a superwoman.. But.. When thing when wrong redundantly... Who wanna be my ears..? Be a shoulder for me to share every single thing i felt and faced... The answer is : No one.. like i said, difficult to explain... How hard for me to pass thru this phase..

Only Allah knows..

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Above all, i believe sumday sumhow, everything will be ok.. Be patient.. Just the matter of time... And i will put a HUGE trust of HIM.. The Almighty.. The real "shoulder" for me to share EVERYTHING...